Apparently I’m a huge disappointment to me family. And I’m a “raging alcoholic”. Wish I would’ve died last time I tried killing myself. Guess I didn’t take enough.
But this time, I say I did. The Xanax and Norco tasted so good going down….
Anonymous said: Doing the EMS thing makes it tough to believe that an often depressed,disheartened, half-burnt out, partially suicidal person like myself can be the solution to another's problems when I have so many of my own to sort through.
Anonymous said: Why is it providers that go home and drink till they can't feel is acceptable, but bc I want to smoke a joint, I am ridiculed. It's safer and less dangerous. Why can't I relax and unwind without the fear of losing my job.
Really getting tired of putting on a front around other people to hide exactly how unhappy I am.