Anonymous said: Doing the EMS thing makes it tough to believe that an often depressed,disheartened, half-burnt out, partially suicidal person like myself can be the solution to another's problems when I have so many of my own to sort through.
Anonymous said: Why is it providers that go home and drink till they can't feel is acceptable, but bc I want to smoke a joint, I am ridiculed. It's safer and less dangerous. Why can't I relax and unwind without the fear of losing my job.
Really getting tired of putting on a front around other people to hide exactly how unhappy I am.
I’ve got family that isn’t blood, and blood that isn’t family.
for someone who pretends to have no emotions whatsoever im really sensitive
As if getting up for work in like 4 hours isn’t bad enough, I keep having nightmares. Ya know, why the fuck do I even do this shit? Hell, why do any of us do this shit? All we’re doing is being a goddamn grief mop. And for what? To live paycheck to paycheck and barely have enough to make ends meet? All while we’re ass raped with taxes so these lazy motherfuckers can sit on their ass and repopulate the world with more lazy sons of bitches that are just going to mooch off people who bust their ass day in and day out trying to make a living.